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Patience is the hardest virtue to maintain during infertility. I know we all struggle with this. It's hard to avoid because most of the infertility journey involves waiting. Waiting to ovulate, then the 2ww. Waiting for your next doctor's appointment. Waiting for AF to show so you can try a new treatment. Waiting for that elusive BFP that seems to be so freely given to others but withheld from you. It's a never ending cycle and I find that the longer we are TTC, the harder it gets.
Sometimes I get this panicked feeling, like if we don't take action NOW that it will never happen for us. I know this isn't logical, but I have this idea that maybe someone else will get pregnant before I do and that in some way they will take my chance. Like the stork will pass us over indefinitely for someone else. Maybe someone more patient.
Honestly, at times I feel like infertility makes me crazy. I feel this desperation and an urgency to try something new or to move forward with treatment. And I have to talk myself out of this anxious feeling every now and then. I have to convince myself that it will happen, and a few weeks or a month delay doesn't mean that the world is going to end.
I hope I'm not alone in feeling this way. Patience is a struggle and I really have a hard time maintaining it. I most definitely am not "enduring well." Especially after years of waiting, I have a hard time keeping the faith. But somehow I hold on to a glimmer of hope, and that's what keeps me going.
How do you stay patient on this journey?
This post is linked up here at Amateur Nester.