You may have noticed that I've changed the name of my blog! It's something that I've been thinking about doing for a while. "My Journey to Motherhood" was so generic and similar to so many other blog titles for infertility. Plus I felt it was a little uncreative, and maybe a bit overconfident. Maybe my blog title has been jinxing me, who knows.
So I came up with a new title. I was thinking really hard about what the new title could be. I wanted it to be something that represents me, and that allows for some wiggle room to grow my blog as my journey through life changes. This is a sacred space for me and I hope to continue writing here even after our infertility journey is over, no matter how it ends.
So as I was brainstorming, I kept thinking about symbols or phrases that mean something to me. And I kept coming back to hummingbirds. Hummingbirds have had a significant spiritual symbolism for me. For example, when Daniel and I were saying our wedding vows, a hummingbird visited the arch above us and paused just long enough for our photographer to take a photo of him. He was drinking from the flowers and hovered just for a few moments. I like to think it was a good omen.
Then a few months ago, I was sitting outside at work on my lunch break. I was really stressing about our infertility journey and I was feeling really depressed and worried that I might never be a mom. When a hummingbird flew by and it paused in the air just 5 feet in front of me. It was staring at me, and remained there a few seconds before flying away. I was sitting on a concrete staircase on the 4th floor of a building, not wearing any bright colors or anything that might attract a hummingbird. And once it paused in front of me, I felt this overwhelming sense of relief. As if it was bringing me a message that I shouldn't worry, and that the events in my life are happening for a reason, to prepare me for something better.
So when I thought of that moment, when the hummingbird paused in front of me and how peaceful I felt, I thought it would be a great name for my blog.
So I hope this change hasn't created an inconvenience for anyone! I'm sure there will be an adjustment for me as I try to re-establish my new brand in the infertility community. But in the long run I think I'll be much happier with a name that is meaningful for me and that allows my blog a brighter future.
So what do you think of my new blog name?