2 Surgeries

Well it's been a few weeks since my last post and I have a few updates to share. Daniel had a Varicocelectomy on October 18th. He had a varicocele on his left testicle so they "tied off" some of the veins and hopefully his fellas won't overheat so much anymore. It takes about 6 months to fully recover from this procedure (from a TTC standpoint) so for the moment our baby-making is on hold.

I figured since we're on a forced break, and 3 doctors have recommended that I get another surgery to remove the rest of my septum, that we might as well get my surgery over with too. So I scheduled my 2nd septum resection with a different doctor; she is a gynecological surgeon and this is her specialty, so I hope she does a good job and that I'll never have to worry about my stupid septum ever again.  Plus, my new doctor, Dr. Roy, said that instead of using a balloon catheter she might use an IUD instead to prevent the uterine walls from touching and allow the uterus to heal properly. I like this idea and hope that it works out for the best and that I have a fully functioning, "normal" uterus by the time this is all over.

So other than that not much is going on. I must say that this break was much needed, I'm sure you can tell that from my previous post. I've been feeling a very strong sense of abandonment and anger on a spiritual level. I'm starting to lose faith in everything I once believed in. I just don't feel like anyone is watching out for me.

Hopefully I can snap out of it soon and in the next few months build my strength so when we can start trying again, I can have hope and believe that we might actually get what we've been praying for, a baby.

Making progress!

Before I had the hysteroscopy, Daniel and I decided that we would take a few months "off" of TTC so I could give my body and mind a break. And I should clarify, by taking the past 3 months "off" just means that we haven't been doing my typical routine of OPK's, temping, etc. But that doesn't mean it's been off of my mind by any means. The question has been lingering in my head, "What's next?"

So Daniel and I talked it over and we finally scheduled an appointment with a Urologist on May 6th. The doctor he will be seeing specializes in male infertility so I'm confident he'll find what's wrong. I am SUPER excited!!! I'm just so grateful that Daniel is finally ready to take a step forward and hopefully get some answers. We both hope that whatever is causing his low motility and morphology will have a quick fix. We both think it could be a varicocele, which would require a minor surgery and Daniel would have to take some time off to recover. But he says he's willing to do whatever it takes. I'm so happy that he feels as ready for this as I do; it would be so much harder if he didn't.

And I've been giving more thought on my septum and having a 2nd surgery and I've decided that I'm not going to worry about it for now. I've heard so many stories of women having babies WITH a septum as big as mine was. I'm hoping that now it's much smaller that my chances of having any pregnancy complications will be much less. I don't want to put my body through another surgery if I may not need it.

Also I bought myself a bunch of Wondfo pregnancy tests online and will start using those this month. I've never been big on testing like I know a lot of other women are, but I think it's something I should be doing now to catch a Chemical Pregnancy (CP) if I have one. Plus knowing I'm not pregnant will make it easier when Aunt Flo finally decides to show her ugly face. It will still be hard like it is every month, but at least I'll know she's coming and make sure to have a bottle of wine on hand (or two!)

So I'll probably give another update after the appointment with the urologist. I hope everyone has a wonderful week! Talk to you soon!